Recently cuaght in this dilemma. i could be high at the moment but emo-ing the next moment. This feeling sux alot. maybe this year throughout, i keep giving myself pressure. i don want to fall. partially because of my parent. More and more often. i found my mum telling me this "幸好你争气" I use to be someone that everyone look down on - especially within my aunt. among all my sibling, i'm the most stupid, although no one really compare within us, but i still felt inferior to them. :(
Listening to more and more story on how my father is being look down on by his brother etc etc. i couldn't help but to feel sad for him. i want him to be able to stand in front of his brother and friend and the only ways is that we 争气. But i'm afraid. i'm afraid i fail to do so. maybe all this pressure given to me and by me made me feel so emotional...

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